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Saturday, 17 October 2009
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Indelible Stamp of our Lowly Origin
Had this show up on another site. I was so moved by this video I had to post it here for any who happen to see it.
Tuesday, 15 September 2009
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Potical labels and Americans
I do not update much. This is mostly because I enjoy reading the opinions of others. I come to xanga to learn what others are thinking, to read the opinions of various sides and see where I stand. I don't come here to argue with people who disagree with me because the futility of this activity is not lost on me. I also have personal friends and family in addition to the anonomous public who read this and do not want to be offensive to any of them (though I honestly care less about the anonomous public). As though it needs to be said: the following is a personal opinion.
Many years ago when I was 13 and George W Bush was running for President against Al Gore, I called myself a conservative and supported Bush. I do not apologize for that, because I was 13 and until I began high school had not ever really heard anything political apart from what my rabidly political father believed in. Until that year, I had never thought about politics at all and didn’t really care much since I could see no way the result effected me personally.
Of course the next year changed many things. 2001 caused me to think, to actually notice the outside world and how we appear to them. I was young, so could hardly have been expected to think about this stuff before then, but I think that a lot of people older than I were just as asleep as I was. Many people had the opposite reaction and became more closed off and well, violent. The divisions in our country were not brought together by that year; they were strengthened. You are with us or against us. Agree with me, or get out.
This, among other changes that occurred in my world view, caused me to no longer associate myself as conservative. I realized that I was socially quite liberal - pro-choice, pro gay marriage, pro separation of church and state. I am in favor of a public option health care reform, I am in favor of government help to the underprivileged. I am an environmentalist. Some might call me a feminist. Yet I am loath to check ‘Democrat’ or ‘Liberal’ as an affiliation. I do not want to bind myself to a thought or an ideology, I do not want to become partisan or appear closed to discussion on the issues.
But is it fair for me to try and say that I am not a liberal democrat when by and large I agree with those groups? I just don’t like labels because they oversimplify a person and put one in the position to be compared to anyone else who carries the same label. I don’t even like ‘independent’ because they appear to be spineless fence sitters.
Is dislike of Republicans enough to make someone a democrat? Is the fact that I voted for and in most things support Obama enough to make me a democrat? Does wanting the health care bill make me a liberal? It is strange that during the years of Bush I at times dreamed about revolution as I saw our country heading nowhere good and something had to stop it. When I started paying attention to Obama during the campaign, I thought that maybe we could turn the country around and not jump mindlessly into self destruction. I started to “hope” (Oh god, I drank the cool-aid!).
Am I a brainless worshipper of Obama because I happen to agree with him? And I appreciate that he speaks with eloquence and clarity - words that ought to bring us together if they were not so bizarrely offensive to some. He is a man, a man elected with both electoral and population majority of American citizens. He deserves the post and at least a tiny bit of respect that the post affords.
I hear many things about liberals that I can’t help but be offended at. That it is a mental disorder. That it is cowardice. That it is anti-American. That one bothers me the most. Half of America associates in some degree with liberal ideas - and people say it is not real American. Hate to break it to you, but America includes people who have abortions, are homosexual, are atheist, who want to save the environment, who are homeless, who are jobless, who are prostitutes, who are immigrants, who are preachers, who are abused kids and abusing parents, on and on I could list them. America is so vast it can almost not be defined, but to try and cut out a full half of it as though their opinion does not matter is simply… well, un-American.
It has taken us many steps to start to fully recognize the full meaning of “all men are created equal” (I swear do not make this about christian founders). The time these words were first written, it was not upheld. Slowly, slavery was abolished, and somewhat more slowly, civil rights were enacted into law. Women were given the right to vote, and are creeping up the corporate and political ladder. It is almost, almost, no longer notable if someone in power is not a white male. Maybe soon it will be something not mentioned at all. Yet the phrase applies not only to obvious physical differences.
Being a liberal, a democrat, a libertarian, a green party member does not make anyone more or less American. It is the strange and terrible, wonderful combination of all these different opinions that clamor together and somehow make something that works. Its like a great cacophony of voices that has so much variety and range of pitch and tempo that it should be a horrific noise, yet somehow a wild and free melody is heard within the chaos.
Speaking of clamor, the anger of the Republicans (or conservatives, your preference) and unspecified fears and hatred they have are drowning out the voices of hope and cooperation. But I’ll keep listening and maybe we’ll hear the tune of the American dream in there sometime soon. Being of a liberal slant, I still desire for the conservative base to have coherent and intelligent dissent to keep the powers balanced. Right now, it is not only unbalanced, but volatile and helping no one. But hey, sing out the way you so desire. There is room here, even for the loud and obnoxious. Don’t try to deny us the same rights though.
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
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The God Delusion
By Dawkins Richard
see relatedIs there a God? - Why I am starting not to even care.
I have been reading two books - I don't have enough faith to be an atheist and God Delusion and the contrast in argument, logical presentation and evaluation of the evidence between the two is astounding. The former makes me call out the logical gaps and balk at the shameless preaching, but the latter sothes my irritation and almost seems to respond directly to the problems of the first.The problem with <religion> Christianity is their beliefs are wholly immune to logic or evidence since God of course can defy all known logic, science, mathematics and historical record. Problem still remains, how do they know they have the 'right' God? When all our normal means of judgement and evaluation are irrelevant, what is left to base these decisions?Near the begining of The God Delusion Dawkins describes the spectrum of 100% belief to 100% disbelief from 1 to 7. He admits that very few people occupy the 100% nonbelief - the '7' position while many people occupy the 100% belief '1' position. When asked if there is a God, people tend to want a simple straight answer, yes or no. This is demonstrated in I don't have enough faith to be an atheist where the author describes a college class discussing the Old Testement. At the end of it, he asked his professor "So is there a God?" and the Professor simply answered "I don't know." This is a quote from the book:"I could have respected a qualified "yes" or "no" with some reasons given, but not "I don't know" - I could get that from an uniformed man on the street. I expected a lot more from a university religion professor." pg 19Thing is, atheists or agnostics or skeptics will rarely answer this question with certainty, and that is why people go to religion. Because if you are looking for an absolute answer given by someone certain in their opinion, you will not find it in the honest atheist, but you will find it in an evangelical preacher of the gospel. It has always been the purpose of religion to give answers to questions beyond our understanding, to input meaning into the meaningless.Dawkins, in laying out the definitions of the terms he uses, describes theism as a belief in something(one) supernatural - a intelligent creator who governs existence and interacts with us, his creation. Then there are deists who believe the universe was created by an intelligent designer but such a person does not interfere and may or may not even be aware of our current existence. Pantheists don't believe that "god" can be separated from what is real and physically exists. God is the universe and everything in it. This is an entirely different definition of God than what either the theists or deists use. Atheists just make it a bit simpler and forgo the term 'god' all together. These same distinctions are made by Geisler and Turek though they combine deist and theist as the initial premise is the same.Thus far by both their definitions, I would consider myself pantheistic, which is of course scarcely removed from atheism. Dawkins describes it as "sexed up atheism" (pg 18) and I enjoy that distinction. I do not believe in supernatural beings or being nor supernatural events as all such things have been increasingly disproved in favor of natural explanations. Pantheism is a sort of combination of prehistoric reverence for the forces of nature that govern our lives with the modern increase in knowledge and understanding of those forces. Its purely a personal preference on my part and is more a variance in definition of terms than a belief system.After both books have to go through such lengths to set up terms, define them and check to see if they have completely covered the spectrum of human belief and disbelief it all starts to seem somewhat superficial. One thing is for sure, religion throughout the ages has undergone as many changes as there have been human beings. Even within a single religion - take Christiainity - the significant changes of theology, philosophy, dogma and practice from the first century to the 21st should be more than apparent to anyone. That is why there are so many divisions within it, and even within the divisions not everyone agrees on even basic questions. Even within a single congregation, the slivers of different beliefs are present. What do I take from this? That beliefs are highly subjective, and that anything claiming to be exact and universally binding fails to account for the magnificent variety that is the human experience.Many people have discussed the negative results of fervent belief - the violence, the ignorance, the bigotry. But in the end each person is responsible for their actions, good or bad. Religion stokes the fires of hatred and violence, and possibly inspires people to do good works as well, but in the end its just a reflection of humanity that is independent of religious preferences.I like the idea that religion has evolved from naturalist personification of animals and nature, into pantheons of gods and goddess like the Egyptians, Norse and Greek, then into a monotheistic God (uppercase "G" is very important) of Christianity, Judaism and Islam. The next logical step seems to be dropping the last remaining deity as so many have been dropped before it (him?). So far as I have seen (which I understand is not really very far) religion doesn't change who or what a person is. Because we are all human and nothing exists in one of us that does not exist in all of us. There is no personal savior that requires telepathic communication except in the mental realms of the individual believer. There is no holy spirit influencing elections, healing (some) of the sick or granting money to (some) of the wishful. Probability is constant, randomness is governed by natural law and not by divine intervention. But thats okay! We can take comfort that our humanity connects us more than our chosen (or indoctrinated) religious beliefs divide us, if only we allow ourselves to see it that way.When I was a child I thought that if the god in the Bible was true, outside sources would point to him, and to the Bible as the best authoritative source, and that this indication would surpass culture, education and personal experience. There would be some sort of objective way to discern that it truly was the truth, because otherwise it would be unfair to those born in different times and places, and to those with limited education. I believed in the Bible at this time, but planned to try to reach its conclusions without it, because I knew that to do that would validate them and would have more impact to nonbelievers. This is the rationale and purpose of apologists. But it is evident that not everyone can get to the Bible by working from outside of it, since many people who try, as I did, do not end up back there at all, but rather completely away from it. It fails to live up to universal standards that fair and just God would have assured his "children".What do I know? We are human. Life is short. We are stuck here for the duration of that life and we all probably want to be able to live it as happily as possible. As for the rest, I'm okay with uncertainty. Is there a God? Random girl on the street says, "I don't know." And whether I live my life as though there is a God or isn't, I will be the same human person doing the same human things. And so will you. Starts to make the question irrelevant doesn't it?
Friday, 10 July 2009
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Procreation - the joys and the pains
I have recently found myself to be pregnant with baby number two. This news has been met with mixed irritation and excitement. My first child was quite unexpected and unplanned, and this one is coming at a much better time. But I hadn't really wanted to be one of those 22 year old moms with multiple children, and I start to fear that the ease at which we do get pregnant will only lead to more and more unplanned babies. And honestly, the idea of a lot of kids absolutely terrifies me. (I get nightmares about Jon and Kate and the Duggars. Take out my uterus before that happens!)
My other issue is the demographic that we are in at this time. My husband is in the Air Force, we are in our early twenties and about to have 2 kids. Pretty much everyone else we have met (thus far) in the military (especially with kids) is Christian. Now, I don't have anything against Christians just for the sake of their religion. Not at all. It is a bit difficult, however, when you have kids. Because young Christian families have a lot of ideas about how to raise children correctly and I do not follow these ideas at all. My child rearing includes dancing to Lady Ga Ga, drawing on the walls, watching the Simpsons and playing with bugs and does not include church or attitude training. I think forward to when she is older and going to school - and hopefully having friends - not knowing much of anything about the Christian religion. I don't want her to be overly weird but a little weird is a good thing. I was a weird kid and I was happy, so I should probably not worry about it.
But worry is something that moms do. I worry that my first child does not have friends because other moms do not like me or approve of the way I raise her. At least having a sibling she will not be alone so much. I worry that maybe I do not discipline her enough and she will end up spoiled. But she is healthy and happy and loved, and I try to remind myself what is really important. She just turned 2, a bit young for much teaching anyway, especially since she barely talks and isn't potty trained yet.
I know I am by no means alone in this boat, but it feels like it sometimes. No one else in my family, or my husband's, is having kids. None of my friends, excpet one I know only online, has kids. And though I have tried, I cannot seem to make friends with the young military moms in my area.
Certain members of my family have been oh so subtely sending Christian themed books for both my kid and for me on how to raise her (now them) and I have the feeling that will only continue as she gets older. I don't have the heart to tell my grandmother with cancer to stop sending books about Moses (I can't read a book full of torturous plagues to my toddler!) and books about raising Christian children in an unchristian world. I have learned from experience that even asking them to stop does nothing (I used to get books upon books about how to date Christian boys amongst less subtle hints to dump my now husband).
What am I looking for in writing about all of this? I dunno. Maybe someone out there feels my pain. Maybe someone has advice on how to make friends with the super Christian new moms. Or how to just survive without close friends. I can only hope that the next place we move is more of a city than this town because recources here are slim. Also, I hope this one is a boy. I don't know if I can survive two teenage daughters...
(Can you tell that my hormones are already impeding my ability to think in a straight line? I'm telling you...)
Monday, 29 June 2009
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Godless Creation
ID - the First Cause. It reasonably follows that in the long chain of cause and effect that governs our universe that somewhere along the line there was a first cause that is itself un-causable. But who is to say such a cause is intelligent - any more than the Earth or the Sun is intelligent. The Earth and the Sun fashioned between them the exact conditions that enabled our existence here, all supported by fixed natural laws. The probability was slim to say the least, but in the vast scheme of things it was bound to happen somewhere. I am going to borrow a term and talk about Creation.Creation is a verb. All things create and destroy. We eat plants and animals to create energy, to develop physically and mentally, sometimes to grow a fetus that will become its own person. It is a force that combats entropy. Everything is in a state of decomposing, falling apart, and yet from the ashes new life, Creation happens. These principles are obvious and demonstrate why the term 'Circle of Life' is appropriate.Stars do this as well. They explode and their energy is released, Creating new forms. From these observations, its plausible that the universe has always existed expanding and collapsing, creating and destroying, for time enumerable. But its possible that there was a first cause, so far removed that it exists beyond the scope of time and space.From what I understand (feel free to correct me) time and space make up the 3rd dimension where we reside. Perhaps these ideas are dated, but my mind has extrapolated on them nonetheless so bear with me. Its hard to imagine anything beyond the 3rd dimension (if not impossible) so I am going to try to describe the 2nd dimension. You have a piece of paper with a maze drawn on it. The paper and the drawing is comparable to our time and space. Paper = time, drawing = space. Imagine a sentient dot who tries to make his way through this maze. You on the outside can easily see how to solve it (though wonder what the point would be for the dot) but the dot is only capable of seeing the black line in front of it, making it beyond difficult to understand where he is and how to get out. I imagine outside the 3rd dimension, a sentient being would see Time/ Space like an infinitely complex web but it would be a simple matter for such a creature to see everything at once. Perhaps if it looked carefully enough, he could find us in one excruciatingly tiny part of time and space, dots running around in our maze, our understanding limited by the senses we have.Some would say that this outer dimensional being is the creator of our universe. Some would say that he is the Big He, not only our creator, but someone intimately involved in our lives. I call him a hypothetical, a mind bug. Maybe there is no dimension beyond ours. Point is, we have a logical thought progression from Creation to Creator, but all we have at the end is a hypothetical guess to the possibility of such a being. It does nothing to confirm anything of hypothetical being's personality, desires or involvement in the world.A pocket watch has a creator. But once created, it is sold or given to someone else, the creator might see it again to fix it when broken. He might keep it for himself, who could guess? Chances are, he dies before the watch stops existing. The pocket watch example is used a lot to demonstrate the case for a creator, but it only suggests that there probably is one. You cannot discern the watchmaker's desires or personality from the watch. Where is the logic from point A: pocket watch = watchmaker; Universe = creator, to point B: Creator = God of ____(Bible, or insert religion here).Creation is something humans do well (as well as destruction). Art, literature, poetry, architecture, technology, even governmental structure are examples of our creativity. It is not limited to sentience; beavers create dams, trees create oxygen, shade, ecosystems, bugs and worms create fertile soil, the earth itself constantly shifts to create new land and recycle earth's crust, the list goes on. I postulated earlier that the force of creation is what combats the force of entropy (the tendency of matter to spread out, equalize in temperature and break down to its simplest parts). These things all happen naturally, without the aid of anything supernatural. Many things that in earlier times were considered works of the gods or a god (or a devil) are now understood to simply be natural occurrences governed by mathematical and scientific principles. Is the universe any less amazing because we understand a bit more of it? I think not. People will continue to insert god into things they do not understand, things we have no answer for. I prefer to keep the possibilities endless in the search for Truth.I consider myself to be an atheistic pagan. I do not worship gods, nor do I believe in them. I define god here as something outside of our natural world (the outer dimensional being mentioned earlier). I believe its possible it exists, but do not have faith in such a creature. The universe is plenty big enough without looking outside of it for things to revere and be thankful for. I love mythology, fairy tales, all things artistic and thought provoking and treat religious stories as such. If anything, I would say that I 'worship' the idea of creation, and in turn the idea of destruction for without one you can't have the other. These are not new ideas. They are the oldest ideas. But they are not dictating ideas, they are not tied to dogma, just to natural law. They do not require faith, their existence is apparent. Why limit life and death with dogma? Why limit the possible Creator outside our realm when there is no reason to even assume it exists? As the Tao says, naming something infinite makes it finite. Why would we want to do something like that? I could literally go on forever... in fact this long rambling post was originally much much longer. So lets make thisThe End.(And they all lived with reasonable happiness for the normal amount of time)
Monday, 22 June 2009
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Ebon Musings
This site is amazing, here is one essay that I read tonight that really struck a cord in me. I will spend many days pouring through everything this site has to offer. As of yet, I am unsure of the name of the author, but I am sure its in the site somewhere.
http://www.ebonmusings.org/atheism/unapologetic.html
Unapologetic
A declaration of atheist prideThere is a shadow falling over the world today.
Reverberating through every quarter of human society is a steady drumbeat, one that, although it has always been with us, has now grown to near-deafening volume. And regardless of the language, regardless of the medium, regardless of the voice, this drumbeat carries the same message: You must agree with us. You must obey us. You must be like us. Complying with our wishes fifty-one percent of the time, ninety percent of the time, or ninety-nine percent of the time is not enough. You must perfectly reflect our every opinion, support us fully in word, thought and deed, or be branded disloyal and silenced or worse. And behind this message, there are other sounds: the heavy tromp of feet marching in unison, the harsh voices of demagogues barking orders, and, very faintly in the distance, the crash of shattering glass and the roar of the flames.
Although this message has experienced a resurgence of strength in recent years, it is by no means a new phenomenon. On the contrary, it is of very ancient origin; it is an echo from our species' dark past, one that refuses to die. Nor is it limited to just one time or one culture. In fact, in an instance of grim irony, this same message is preached by different groups that despise each other and whose goals are in other respects diametrically opposite. However, no matter the specific aims of those that advocate it, this message is equally malignant, and its triumph, if it triumphs, equally horrific.
What is the source of this message? At least in its present incarnation, the blame for this dangerous insanity can be laid squarely at the feet of religious extremism. Most religious groups are, by definition, motivated by faith, meaning that their beliefs are held without evidence and cannot be confirmed or disproven by any test. Worse, many such groups firmly believe that God is wholly on their side - a belief which leads inevitably to the conclusion that any compromise or concession is not only unnecessary, but sinful. When two such groups clash, the only possible resolution to the dispute is for one group to impose its will on the other through force or coercion; and this is precisely what we now see being played out all over the world. Though this mentality has always existed, the events of the last several decades - most notably the consolidation of power by the American religious right and the growth of Islamic fundamentalism worldwide - have brought about a highly polarized climate in which it can thrive.
Fortunately, there is an alternative: a worldview that is not based on faith, and for which there is no possibility of its advocates acting under the belief of divine sanction. In the midst of these dark times, we need, now more than ever, the clear voice of atheism as an antidote to the fevered chaos of religion. Through the storm of faith-based hatred and fear, there is a bright light of reason showing the way, if only we have the courage to follow it.
A religious believer's argument for the truth of their faith is referred to as an apologetic. In that sense, then, Ebon Musings is an "unapologetic" - an argument for the truth of no faith. There may or may not exist a being we would call a god, somewhere in the vast uncharted reaches of the universe, but so far we have no good reason to believe that there is. Moreover, there are excellent reasons to think that no religion that is or ever has been believed by human beings has it right. They are not accurate descriptions of reality, and we are fully justified in believing this. That is the conclusion this site uncompromisingly defends.
But there is another sense in which Ebon Musings is an unapologetic. Prevalent in the popular media, both secular and religious, is the notion that being an atheist is, somehow, something to be ashamed of. We are told that we are second-class citizens, justly deserving both of society's condemnation and God's wrath. We are told that we are rebellious for rejecting tradition and custom and instead daring to think for ourselves. We are told that we are arrogant and ungrateful for all the good things religion provides. We are told that we are meddling in the affairs of others by enforcing the separation of church and state, complaining about practices that never did anyone any harm. We are advised that we are insensitive for challenging the beliefs that others hold dear. Most of all, we are counseled to keep quiet, keep our heads down, and let the religious majority have its way.
Well, I say, the hell with that! I will never cease to stand up for my convictions, nor will I remain silent rather than speak out for what is right. When people believe things that are foolish, I will laugh. When people believe things that are evil and immoral, I will tell them so, in no uncertain terms. When people's stubborn, dogmatic irrationality brings them to the brink of disaster and beyond when these problems could so easily be avoided if only they would act reasonably, I will point that out. When people claim their beliefs give them the right to infringe on others' lives, I will call them the tyrants they are, and fight back as hard as I can. And when people believe things on the basis of absolutely no evidence, I will not shrink from saying so. That some people are offended by what I have to say and would rather not hear such things is a problem of theirs, not a problem of mine. And most of all, I will never, ever apologize for living my life in accordance with what I believe to be true. Being an atheist is not something to be ashamed of - it is something to be proud of.
We should be proud that we are atheists. We should be proud that we make our moral decisions guided by conscience and the common good, rather than living our lives in slavish conformity to a set of bizarre and arbitrarily contrived ancient rules. We should be proud that we have the courage and the strength of character to make up our own minds and to stand firm against threats of divine wrath, eternal torment, and the disapproving roar of the majority. We should be proud that we recognize and reject absurd superstitious fantasies and do not clutter up our minds with muddled and uncritical thinking. We should be proud that we do not attempt to excuse hate and bigotry by claiming a divine mandate. We should be proud that we are willing to ask questions and to doubt, rather than follow blindly or remain in passive and fearful obedience to what we have always been taught. We should be proud that we walk by the clear light of reason rather than stumbling along in the fog of faith. For too long, many societies have maintained the ridiculous notion that all these positive and praiseworthy traits are something to be embarrassed about. It is long past time that we confronted this sentiment and exposed it for the falsehood that it is. Instead of making excuses, we should be encouraging everyone to live this way.
The anti-atheist sentiment widespread in society is an obvious consequence of the dominance of theism, and the fact that religious groups that see atheism as a competitor have done their utmost to suppress it. Many of their leaders have not hesitated to spread the most vicious and absurd lies about atheism, and the majority of lay believers, who have been brought up since birth to believe without questioning, have accepted them without making even the most cursory effort to investigate the atheist viewpoint for themselves. Far too many people think it is acceptable to decide a controversial issue after listening to only one side.
However, we atheists must also shoulder some of the blame for this state of affairs. We have not done nearly as much as we could be doing to organize and to make our voices heard. Between 10 and 15% of the American population identifies as atheist, agnostic, or nonreligious, with proportions similar or even more favorable in many other First World nations, and our numbers are growing. If nonbelievers were a unified political constituency, we would be a power to be reckoned with, with clout equal to that of any religious group and a strong voice to counter misrepresentations about us. Instead, in the current state of affairs religious leaders can spew venom at us, unchallenged, from the pulpit, and politicians assert their patriotism by casually insulting us, or passing bills that discriminate against us, with virtual certainty that they will pay no political price for doing so. No doubt this lamentable lack of organization stems partly from the fact that atheists and other freethinkers are by definition individualists, resistant to joining up with any larger group. However, that should not relieve us of the responsibility, not only to make our voices heard, but to seek out those who believe likewise and join with them. An organized group of people, speaking in unison, is far more effective and influential than those same people each speaking as individuals - and when that group has the truth on its side, as we do, the strength and clarity of its message is increased tenfold.
When defending atheism, facts and rational argument are the necessary foundation, but can only go so far. In many places around the world, but especially in the United States of America, our rights and even our lives are increasingly threatened by militant religionists - both foreign terrorists, and our own homegrown fanatics and would-be theocrats who will brook absolutely no dissent in their crusade to impose their own beliefs on everyone else. Now more than ever, a strong, clear voice of reason is needed to counteract this madness. We nonbelievers can no longer afford to stay silent on matters of practical importance - too much is at stake.
While I acknowledge I have been uncharitable in my characterization of the groups that oppose us, I will not admit that it is undeserved. On the contrary: many religious groups have adopted truly insidious ends, and in order to counter their harmful ambitions, it is necessary to shine a light on them and name them for what they are. The growing intolerance of dissent is a trend that must be reversed. In order to show just how bad it has become, witness some recent examples from what is popularly dubbed the "culture war":
In the 2004 American presidential election, the Catholicism of Democratic candidate John Kerry became a major political issue. Several American bishops ordered priests in their dioceses to deny the sacrament of communion to any Catholic politician that supported euthanasia or a woman's right to choose. (Catholic belief holds that partaking in this rite is necessary for salvation.) Although a meeting of Catholic bishops in June of that year declined to make that a formal policy of the church, it was later found that a letter sent to that meeting by Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger - now the newest pope - strongly advocated such a policy, advising that any Catholic that failed to vote in lockstep with church officials' pronouncements would be "guilty of formal cooperation in evil" and thus "unworthy" to present themselves for communion. Strangely, although the Catholic church also opposes the death penalty and the war on Iraq, no candidate's support for those policies was ever cited as a potential reason to deny them communion.
Some people may wonder why I have chosen to begin my examples with this one. After all, as an atheist it is obviously none of my concern whether a person has received communion or not, and the Catholic church certainly has the right to grant or deny it to whomever they wish. If an ordinary Catholic resents having church authorities dictate their political preferences to them, they can always leave and join another church. I do not contest any of that. However, the church's use of communion as spiritual blackmail is an exemplar of a dangerous trend: the willingness and even eagerness to attempt to translate religious influence into political power. The end result of trying to merge church with state is always terrible, as hundreds of years of bloody religious warfare in Europe demonstrated all too well. The founders of America hoped to create a republic free of this conflict, where the constitutionally enshrined separation of church and state would be to the benefit of both, and so far no attempts to circumvent the principles they laid down have succeeded in the long run; but today the assault on their vision is more violent and determined than ever.
Consider next a more ominous example: religious fundamentalists attempting to force their worldview not on other members of the same religion, but on the population in general. Contrary to what some people seem to think, marriage is not an exclusively religious rite but confers many civil benefits as well: the right to visit a sick partner in the hospital; the right not to have to testify against one's partner in court; and the right to share health insurance and Social Security benefits, to name a few. For people in long-term, committed relationships, there is absolutely no valid reason to deny them these benefits, regardless of their gender. Yet eleven American states have so far voted to outlaw gay marriage, even to unconditionally deny gay couples these civil benefits under arrangements of any other name. Some have carried anti-gay hysteria even farther by enacting into law bans on gay people adopting children, regardless of their qualifications or their ability to provide a loving and stable home environment.
These campaigns have invariably been led by Christian conservatives who have garnered support for such measures by unsubtly appealing to prejudice and homophobia dressed up in the guise of "protecting marriage". The question is inevitably never asked - protecting marriage from what, exactly? Would allowing gay men and women to marry harm heterosexuals somehow? Would it negatively affect existing marriages in any way? Of course not - a moment's clearheaded thought should make that obvious enough. But religious conservatives have so far very effectively prevented that moment of clarity by clouding their followers' minds, inciting paranoia and hysteria and whipping up the flames of hatred. Their rhetoric is very similar, both in tone and in content, to the pre-civil rights era opposition to interracial marriage, and the comparison is apt in other ways as well, although so far that has not seemed to trouble them.
There are still more examples of religious intrusion into people's lives. Consider the growing issue of religious pharmacists who refuse to fill certain prescriptions because they disapprove of the use of the specific drug being prescribed. For example, there have been a rash of recent cases of Roman Catholic pharmacists refusing to dispense birth control pills - even to people who are not Catholic - because Catholic church dogma forbids the use of contraception. In at least one of these cases, not only did the pharmacist refuse to fill the prescription, he refused to return it to the patient in an attempt to prevent her from having it filled at a different pharmacy. And in many states, legislatures are now considering laws that would explicitly permit such actions.
What can be said about the incredible arrogance of this behavior? A pharmacist is a person whose job is simply to dispense prescriptions which a doctor feels and which a patient agrees are necessary for that patient's health and well-being. They have no right to barge into a situation that is none of their business, pass judgment on how other people should best run their own lives and attempt to override those people's own decisions. If we allow pharmacists to refuse to fill prescriptions on religious grounds, what is next? Will we soon see pharmacists refusing to dispense antiviral medicines to people with AIDS because they believe HIV is God's justified punishment for homosexuals and people who have extramarital sex? (Christian conservatives are already on record as opposing the newly developed vaccine for human papillomavirus, a common sexually transmitted disease that is not stopped by condoms and that causes thousands of cases of deadly cancer each year, because they see it as tantamount to a license for young people to have sex.) Will Christian Scientists, who believe in the healing power of prayer and shun modern medicine as a rule, become pharmacists and then refuse to do anything at all? Will we soon see medical professionals blackmailing people by demanding that those people convert to their religion or attend their church before they will treat them? Once we allow people to refuse to do their jobs on religious grounds, where will it end?
Against this argument, conservative religious pharmacists bemoan the fact that their religious freedom is being trampled upon when they are forced to dispense drugs whose use they cannot condone. I have a suggestion for these poor, beleaguered souls: If you disapprove of the use of certain medications and feel strongly that you could not in good conscience approve of their use, then do not become a pharmacist. Having religious freedom in this context means that, if a person has objections to performing the duties of a pharmacist, then they are free not to become a pharmacist. It does not mean that they are free to take the job and then refuse to do it while still expecting to be paid.
As bad as these incidents are, there are even more frightening signs on the horizon of what the religious right would like to do to those who show anything less than total obedience to their hate-based agenda. In the past few months, prominent religious right leaders have taken turns calling for the impeachment and removal from office of all judges who make decisions that they dislike. Others, such as Pat Robertson, have openly stated their belief that federal judges who rule in favor of the separation of church and state are more dangerous than the terrorists who attacked America on September 11, and have refused to apologize for or retract these remarks. Their preferred model of judge, of course, is a self-righteous theocratic despot such as Roy Moore, the former chief justice of the state of Alabama, who was removed from office for defying a higher court's order to remove a Ten Commandments monument from the state judicial building and has spent most of his subsequent time unceasingly trumpeting his own martyrdom.
I will not return Robertson's compliment: I do not believe that Christian fundamentalists are a greater threat to society than Islamic terrorists. However, while their methods differ, I do believe that the motives of both groups are ultimately the same: to force all people to conform to their narrow image of how society should be, to intrude into other people's lives and require those people's decisions to obtain their seal of approval. Regardless of the specific religious tradition in which this idea arises, though, it is equally tyrannical and equally evil.
The outrages described above by no means represent a comprehensive listing of all the evils the religious right has wreaked. Much more could be written on, for example, their efforts to ban abortion - for many desperate, frightened young women, the best way out of a situation with no good options - while at the same time they battle furiously against effective sex education and access to contraception that would keep abortion as rare as possible, apparently preferring that people be kept ignorant of the information they need to make responsible decisions. Much could be written on their dictatorial attempts to outlaw euthanasia that would allow people suffering from incurable diseases to end their pain and die with dignity in a time and manner of their choosing, or on their selfish and irrational animus against stem-cell research that holds out the promise of curing paralysis, blindness, Alzheimer's disease, and a thousand other dread ailments, but that must be opposed because they value a microscopic clump of cells more highly than a real human being who is suffering and dying. Much could be written on their hatred for social welfare programs because they believe that poverty is a deserved punishment from God on the poor, or on their attempts to infiltrate real science education with false religious dogma. Much could be written on their disregard for the environment on the grounds that the promised apocalypse makes protecting the planet superfluous, or on the way they have focused on issues that are nowhere mentioned in their own sacred texts while at the same time disregarding every injunction those texts contain about compassion and social justice, or on their support for militarism and constant war so long as it is fought and died for by the children of people less privileged than they.
Some readers may have detected a tone of anger in the preceding passages. If you are one of them, then you are correct: I am angry. It is, however, important to make the target of that anger clear. Am I "angry at God"? No - that is a ridiculous false claim perpetrated by religious apologists. A person self-evidently cannot be angry at what they do not believe to exist. Rather, I am angry at those human beings who think they have the exclusive right to decide what beliefs are and are not acceptable, and whose senseless, relentless bigotry is causing untold suffering for millions of others. I am angry at those who believe that it is acceptable to wage war or to kill in the name of God. I am angry at those who believe that any other human beings are less than fully equal, either because of what they believe or because of any immutable characteristic. I am angry at those who want to write their religious beliefs into law and treat others as second-class citizens or worse. I am angry at those who want to stifle dissent and independent voices. I am angry at those who enrich themselves at others' expense with sanctimonious talk, empty promises, and naked appeals to prejudice.
All the wrongs described above spring from religious absolutism - the belief that dissent equals disloyalty and that to disagree with the holder of such a belief is to disagree with God. That conviction is at the root of this evil tree. And while it might seem a contradiction to be passionate in defense of moderation, to take a strong stand for compromise, or to raise the banner high in favor of dissent, that is precisely what I intend to do. These modern-day crusaders need to be taught that they cannot have everything their own way.
What all these events have in common is fear. The religious right uses fear as a weapon, as a means of control - it attempts to compel people's obedience by making them afraid. The Catholic churches denying communion to pro-choice voters wanted those voters to be afraid of losing their salvation. The bigots attempting to ban gay marriage derive their support from the irrational fear that recognizing other types of unions would somehow harm heterosexual marriage. The obstructionist pharmacists, like the opponents of the HPV vaccine, try to force people to obey their rigid idea of sexual morality by making them afraid of the consequences - unintended pregnancy, disease, death - and want to deny others the means to prevent these conditions because it means they have one less thing to make people afraid of. Pat Robertson, Roy Moore and other Christian hatemongers want people to be afraid that God will exact vengeance on them if they do not do as those hatemongers say. Islamic terrorists, of course, threaten dreadful punishment and suffering on those who reject their rigid, theocratic view of the world. And, let us not forget, the intrusive preachers who take glee in describing the hellish torments reserved for nonbelievers. The reader should be able to come up with similar examples with little difficulty. Almost every goal of the religious right is predicated on the tactic of making people afraid, because fearful people are more easily led and more easily persuaded not to think.
But it follows as an immediate consequence that, as broad as the religious right's power base, at its core it is fragile. Their strategy is not founded on rational persuasion that produces a lasting commitment, but on spreading fear and misinformation, keeping their followers pliant and easily controlled by keeping them from thinking. If they cannot blind otherwise ordinary, reasonable people with prejudice and paranoia - if they cannot keep people afraid - then they cannot win. That is why it is so important for atheists to openly identify themselves as such and speak out against them. Fear and paranoia are bandwagon strategies: the more people that are seen to be going along with them, the more persuasive they will be to everyone else. Conversely, when people stand up and resist - when there are individuals who denounce irrational fear- and hatemongering in no uncertain terms - it will provide a beacon of strength and prevent many others from being swept along. A few strong voices can turn back the tide of religious tyranny, if only there are atheists who are willing to step up and provide the leadership and the message.
In light of these facts, it is vital for atheists to get their message straight. If we wish to speak out effectively, we must present a unified front. This will magnify the strength of our message and prevent confusion among those who hear it. My suggestion for such a message is as follows. When we are asked, "What is it that atheists want?", our answer should be a simple one: what we assert is the right to make our own decisions. We want to live our lives as we see fit, harming no one, without undue interference from others. We assert the right to love whomever we want, without some sanctimonious conservative telling us that he will not allow society to recognize our relationship because he disapproves of it. We assert the right to medical privacy, to make whatever decisions we and our doctors deem best for our health without unasked-for and unappreciated interference from religious zealots. We assert the right to a government that represents all its citizens fairly and impartially, without any theocratic officials seeking to impose their religious opinions on us. We assert the right to have our children taught science in science classes and not other people's religious beliefs, and we assert the right not to be taxed to support churches that will not pay their own way. In short, we assert the right to live in peace, free of coercion, under a democratic government that does not give special privileges to specific religious beliefs or religion in general. Although no one speaks for all atheists, I am confident that the vast majority of them share these goals.
In exchange for this, we should offer the same right: the right for religious people to believe and worship as they see fit, without outside interference, so long as they do not attempt to force those beliefs on others. This is a gift of great value, if only they would realize that. Unfortunately, there are still many religious leaders who view the ability to force their own beliefs on other people as a sacred right and who cannot tolerate the idea of not having everything their own way. These people will probably never accept such a deal, and so there is no alternative but to fight against them and defeat them. However, there are more than enough fair-minded, reasonable people to triumph over the fanatics, if only we can bring them to our side by dispelling the fear and disinformation and making it clear what atheists really stand for.
I do not mean to trivialize the magnitude of the task before us. Though it is conceptually simple, the actual realization of that concept will be a dauntingly enormous endeavor. The leaders of the religious right have amassed enormous wealth and influence and are strongly entrenched in the corridors of power, and command the unquestioning allegiance of hordes of followers who will do their utmost to shut down any opposing viewpoint. Even some atheists may be unable to resist the fear that our efforts are hopeless, that the religious extremists cannot be defeated. To these people, my message is as follows: have courage. Do not surrender, do not give up, do not retreat, and most of all, do not remain silent. However dark the road ahead appears, there is light at the end. The tyrants of the religious right are not invincible, and if we unite, we can defeat them. Though they have money, power and influence, they do not have the one vital thing that we possess: the truth. Though it may seem a small thing, and though it may seem all too easy for it to be silenced or shouted down, in the right hands it can move mountains.
If I have achieved the goal I had in mind while writing this essay, you may be wondering what you can do to join the fight. The answer is to get informed and involved. The religious right thrives on fear and ignorance - they cannot persist when light is shined on their actions and people cannot be made afraid. Joining or donating money to one or more of the church-state separation or civil liberties groups listed on the links page is a very important first step which I would recommend to all atheists, but more can be done. Monitor the news for issues and legislation that impact civil liberties, and speak out: call and write letters to your elected officials to urge them to take action and to media organizations to encourage them to provide appropriate and sympathetic coverage. And do not be afraid to promote and defend atheism when the opportunity arises - to family and friends; to streetcorner and door-to-door preachers and other religious apologists; on Internet forums and discussion boards; on college campuses and at other local venues; even on TV and other media if the chance arises. Do not be afraid to write to newspapers and magazines offering to author an editorial, or to ask to appear on TV or radio shows as a guest or to take part in a debate. And lastly, I recommend that all atheists create a personal website explaining why they hold the position they do. The Internet is a wonderful invention - a diverse and truly global platform for speech - and we should take full advantage of it. If all nonbelievers, or even just a small percentage of them, did these things, we would be a powerful force for reason, and certainly more than strong enough to effectively combat the religious right.
The task that awaits us is vast; we must not lose sight of that fact. Every generation has a chance to reshape the world as it sees fit, and by our actions we will collectively decide whether the world our descendants inherit will be one of greater freedom and peace, or one of repression, dogmatism and fear. At this moment in time, those two possibilities hang very much in the balance. A huge amount is at stake, and the consequences if we fail to act could be terrible. But the best way to avoid becoming discouraged, I find, is to keep a sense of historical perspective. The forces of religious absolutism are not on the winning side of history. They have been steadily declining in power for millennia, and so long as people of conscience and principle are willing to stand against them, they will continue to do so. That we are fighting not just for the present day but for the future as well makes our battle more important, but it also makes our eventual victory all the sweeter. But the most important lesson to take away is that, regardless of history, regardless of who wins any given battle, we should never, ever be ashamed to be atheists. The values we stand for are the right ones, and we should never apologize for holding them. If anything, society should be grateful to us for persevering and for speaking a viewpoint that deserves to be heard, and we should be proud - yes, proud - of who and what we are. The day will come, long after the hate-filled words of the extremists have faded away, when all humanity will be grateful that we would not be silenced.
Sunday, 21 June 2009
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Our Father who Art in Heaven...
No, not that heavenly father
I mean the Sun.
The glorious amazing fiery mass without which our little planet would not exist. His irresistible pull on us gives us all of our seasons and all of our days and nights. His energy not only gives us warmth, but it gives us light, and energy. It gives plants the means to create oxygen and nutrients to feed the animals. We are made from its dust, given life by its power.
On this day (in the Northern Hemisphere) His light shines on us longer than any other day of the year. Even if you don't think the sun has any conscious desire to give us life, you have to admit, we could not exist without the Sun and the exact conditions he has set to sustain us.
We celebrate our Fathers today, and the Sun is kind of like the father of us all. The sort of father that makes sure we have everything we need, but maybe isn't very emotionally available. He won't step in to solve our problems, but lets us figure it out on our own, no matter how long it takes or how hard we fall. Is it any wonder that our ancestors worshiped the giver of life, the center of our Galaxy?
Get out and enjoy the sun people! Spend some quality time with the Father in the Sky while you spend some time with you dad here on earth.
Friday, 19 June 2009
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Conscious Choice
More people should make the effort to do this. So many seem to only react, driven my impulse or emotion, or swept away by a perceived majority opinion. Instead, I strongly believe in making conscious choices. We are each enabled to think through things before reacting to them.
For a bigger picture, take any given news caster on our major networks. They will undoubtedly do whatever they can to get a reaction out of you, an emotional response. All I have to do is continue thinking, what claims are they making? How are they backing them up? Is this issue even important to me or my life? Is their reasoning sound? Do they address the opposing view? A good reporter would do these things, but in casual browsing of major news networks like CNN and FOX, I see precious little of it. So I disregard their entire diatribe and continue to live my life. I do tire of these people trying to make something of nothing; who think they can predict the future and paint a picture of a communist USA ruled by the anti-christ, full of rampant homosexuality and Islamic terrorism and doctors that force people to get abortions under government funded health care. Seriously, calm the fuck down. I will continue to live my life the way I deem fit no matter what the government will do, or what you think the government will do.
Change is scary, I get it. I have yet to see any reason to be afraid, except because his middle name is Hussien and he has a silver tongue and doesn't condem everyone in the world that does things differently than we do. I do not think Obama is the greatest thing ever or the best president ever or that hes perfection on earth. Because we are so poorly informed by so called reporters (who seem only interested in making as big a deal out of everything as possible) I do not feel like I can make an informed decision. I tend to side on the side for him, however, beceause the opposing side has yet to convince me of anything horrible he has done. I like giving people the benefit of the doubt, but I guess thats just me.
But seriously, when Jon Stewart has better news cast than the big names... I love the guy, but damn its gotten to the point that satire of the News is actually News, because the News has become a satire of itself.
So far the Mob has been kept too entertained to care what is actually going on. But I am not entertained. I want truth, or at least the attempt for truth. Because otherwise, I cannot make a Conscious Choice. I refuse to make uniformed choices, so I am left doing nothing on many issues. Several I have made quite throurough thought out decisions on, but things like healthcare and the war and the economy.... I just don't know. But I doubt it will be as horrible as the conservatives think or as glorious as the liberals hope (the extremes of these two).
If people would just calm down, stop reacting to everything the President does (OMG he killed a fly! OMG he went on a date with his wife! OMG he smiled at a dictator at a world meeting!) and maybe make an effort to get actual facts and evidence and maybe even understand some of the issues, the media circus could be dismantled and we could have news again... maybe.
Saturday, 13 June 2009
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Creation Story - as told by ME
The Creation Story, as told by ME
In all things we know this truth - that there are no beginning and no ends in the turning of the great wheel. All things are born, they grow, they live, they die, and they are born again. We measure this. We call it “Time.” But before there was Time… there was only infinite potential.
The Infinite Potential culminates the essence of the divine Feminine. It is the womb that incubates all life and to it all things return. But it could not begin life alone. The Spark culminates the essence of the divine Masculine. The Spark holds the vitalizing energy of power and creation. The Spark and the Infinite Potential met, and the shout of their union echoed through eternity.
From the union of the Spark and the Infinite Potential the four forces of Nature laid the foundation of the Universe. Tremendously heated masses began to spin together until they formed stars. Alone they represented a piece of the Spark, together, they formed whole galaxies and represented the Infinite Potential.
Our own Sun is a part of the great Milky Way galaxy, fondly know as the Spiral Goddess. From him came the material to form the earth, and the energy that gives the planet life. The Earth herself is a marvel of continuous growth and balance, eloquent and purely beautiful. To all of her children she gives life and embraces them at last upon death, only to return the life again. For the Spark can never be lost and the Infinite Potential can never cease to create. We call this Love.
Within each of us is a piece, brought down from the very Beginning. The first stars were born, grew and died birthing new stars, through the supernovas and the nebulas and all the things which we do not yet know or understand. It continued on and on to our galaxy, our Sun, our Earth, Ourselves. In each of us is the Spark that makes us unique, filled with the power to create, and to learn. In each of us is the Infinite Potential that connects us to everything that ever is, was, or ever will be.
Seeking, learning, searching, understanding. We are called to discover and to know, to connect and to love and to believe in something bigger. Something bigger is beneath our feet, within our soul, and in every living thing. It is out there; it is inside ourselves. Humanity is not exempt from nature but inherently a part of it.
Tuesday, 09 June 2009
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(Whats) Eating me
Well, for starters, the past week I have had an increasingly more difficult time eating. I am not really sure why this is (I am having insomnia trying to get to the bottom of it) but for some reason I am not associating the feeling of hunger with a desire to eat. Even when I do force myself (or have it forced on my by my ever loving husband) I can barely eat half a meal and have a hypoglycemic episode in response to larger meals. It makes me associate eating with feeling lousy because my blood sugar gets so out of whack.
The idea of an eating disorder has floated around my head. It might be true that I have an unrealistic view of my body image. While at a store in a changing room with mirrors on 3 walls I was able to see my body all the way around and I admit it looked rather terrible in my eyes. I feel like I am losing muscle mass and gaining fat and generally don't look all that great anymore. But at least consciously I don't mind so much. There is little reason for me to look like a super model in my life but I am vain deep down so this could be playing in a role in my lacking desire for food. My husband tells me I am insane for thinking this, but I at least think I am being objective in my assessment of my body.
This hasn't gone on for a very long period of time, but it seems to come and go in cycles. No doubt in a few days I will be back to normal and have forgotten all about this. I know that while stressed I don't eat. I was stressed last month and not eating very much because of it. The stressors are gone but perhaps the coping mechanism remains? Am I addicted to this feeling because it gives me a sense of control? I used it all through highschool not because I felt fat or like I needed to watch my calories, but because I both enjoyed the pain of the hunger and felt in control of my bodily desires. It was a form of self mutilation much like how some (in their teenage agnst) cut themselves.
In any case for a few weeks now I estimate that my average daily caloric intake to be around 600 (I didn't count them so I could be off). I know that my usual average is a bit over twice that (1400) because of my nutrition class so I am estimating based of that. My husband is worried about me, and I am only starting to be concerned because food is actually starting to taste bad and repulse me. I mean, eventually my bodily instincts have to kick back in and make me want to eat right? Aside from when I was pregnant (and this is not a possiblity I assure you) I can't recall ever actually distaining the taste of food, so it has caused me to question the root cause of this further.
Because if its not that I am trying to starve, or because I am just too stressed to eat, why would my body suddenly stop acting like it wants food? It doesn't really make sense. But like I said, I am still holding out hope that pretty soon I'll just phase out of it and be back to normal. Just writing this in an attempt to cure my other "ill" - insomnia.
Tuesday, 02 June 2009
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My brother could kill someone someday
Recent news - I am sure you have heard about the murder of abortion Dr. Tiller - has reopened an avenue of thought in me. I first started thinking about it when the Virginia Tech school shootings occurred. The description of the young man who committed the crimes eerily reminded me of my younger brother.
My younger brother is... not normal. He displays symptoms of aspergers, yet the doctors hesitate to diagnose him with it due to significant differences he displays. He is violent and goes into fits of rage. He has, and has always had, a significant superiority complex the like of which I have never seen. He honestly believes that he has never done anything wrong in his entire life. He also honestly believes that anyone who falls under any of the following is an evil person bent on the destruction of mankind: liberal, non-christian, homosexual, non-conservative, pro-choice, pro-Obama, evolutionist and/or well, anything you can think of that Rush Limbaugh is against. He believes the conspiracy theories that say that Obama is a puppet of [corporations, the devil, muslims etc] or the antichrist. He honestly believes that 'liberal' (I use the term as he does to describe anyone he happens to disagree with) people deserve to die and gleefully awaits the time he can see them burning in hell. His brain has the amazing ability to rationalize anything to be right in his eyes without the burden of logic or factual evidence. He also believes that he is extremely intelligent. He has delusions of grandeur; he is paranoid. He has no friends. He hates pretty much everyone. He is unable to empathize.
So in short, I am of the opinion that my brother is potentially a psychopath. He is someone, who if told that abortion doctors murder babies everyday in terrible slaughter and given enough anger towards these individuals, could possibly take matters into his own hands and kill them.
Violent and irrational rages that he has had in the past have had less reason. He once grabbed a knife and came at me with it because I prevented him from calling the police on my youngest brother, whose crime was sneezing near him without covering his mouth. I kid you not. Now, this was several years ago, but he was 14 at the time and this is obviously not something a normal 14 year old would do.
He has periods of relative clarity. He still exhibits aspergers symptoms - repeating one idea or phrase over and over again. He paces and talks to himself constantly, rocking back and forth. What troubles me is what he often says while he mutters to himself. My family no longer pays attention to his ways, but I always understood him ramblings better than my parents. He repeats things he hears from Rush Limbaugh's show (which my dad listens to all the time) and things he hears from my dad's psycho church 3 times a week. Things like the how terrible our president is, what evil people we have running our schools, country, our lives. How satan is taking over the world because human beings are too evil and are all going to hell. He talks about killing people.
I am not saying per se that the people who have sparked these ideas in him are responsible for what actions he may one day take. After the thoughts of boundless evil running rampant in the world have finally consumed him completely. But, honestly what do people think will happen when they say things like this http://www.gingiedmonds.com/
To a normal person that would believe something like this it would fuel anger and hatred. To someone who is not normal, can you see how their obsessive paranoid minds would take it? My brother doesn't seem to care particularly about abortion, but it is a good example of the flamatory things he does listen to on a daily basis. Rush Limbaugh most of all, but he listens to more religious fundamentalism as well.
We live in a country of free speech, so I am not saying these people should be censored. They should just have the self control to not use language to insight blind hate and anger towards other PEOPLE. You can disagree with someone on every level but that doesn't make them less of a person than you are.
Fundamentalism will always have followers and people who aren't quite right that carry out the underlying message. I don't want my brother to be one of these people. I don't want to watch the news and see a picture of my brother, caught or killed in a violent attack on people he has been conditioned to hate. Because although I don't really like my brother, I still love him, and wish I could help him have a better grasp of reality
Yes prolife people by and large are against the idea of shooting abortion doctors. Those who are against it need to drown out the people like the one I linked if they want to help prevent more tragedies like that one. Because with the current remarks out there it isn't hard to see how people like that man, and like my brother, could find themselves justified in their actions.
Monday, 01 June 2009
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Updating again... perhaps this will become a habit
I am a stay at home mom and military wife. I live in California for the moment but have no friends living anywhere near me. The friends I have made since moving here have moved (as it happens) and I have begun spending a lot of time online for what I call pseudo-human interaction.
To be honest, I usually just read whatever nonsense is on Revelife's blog or some similar postings and comment about how stupid the people are (at least to myself I don't actually post comments much).
I used to journal all the time in high school. I literally filled up almost a dozen books filled with my teenage angst, song lyrics, bits of short story, personal philosophy and my changing world view. I am really glad for them, I hope it helps me relate better to my daughter when she is in high school. I haven't written much since she was born, which I wanted to keep up with so she could read about my perspective of her formative years. I spend much of my time in quiet contemplation about the nature of the universe, life and death. I think about what it is I believe and why. Of course merely thinking about such things will not get me any more proof or evidence to my questioning. Yet I hold to the belief that any questions we have about ourselves have the answers contained - well, in ourselves.
It may seem strange that I discount religion and yet would tell you that I am Wiccan if asked. Words mean things as they say, to be honest, what I am entirely depends upon your understanding of the word. But let it suffice that there is no dogma and no truly defined explanation of Wicca which is why I choose to label myself as such. Plus being called a witch is super fun.
I wrote a very long paper about why believing in faeries is a perfectly rational thing to do in my AP philosophy class. I cannot remember much of the specifics except I basically said that belief in faeries makes at least as much sense as believing in the Bible and at least believing in faeries doesn't then dictate my actions. It is a bit of satire really, as I use essentially the same argument used by those who believe in God. I admit that it is entirely subjective and their actual existence is irrelevant, I just needed to prove that a person ought to be able to believe in them without being called a wacko.
I am extremely open minded about the possibility of things existing. Alternate universes, faeries, some sort of God, a soul, an afterlife. I am also pretty convinced that none of these things can be proven or disproved as by definition they exist outside of our reality. The idea that they could exist is however very exciting, romantic and whimsical. I find it hard to debate per se since I concede that there is no evidence aside from that which springs from my imagination. One thing that I will debate is that the Bible is not the word of God and should not be used as such by anyone. And therefor Christians that believe it have no ground to stand on, and Christians who don't believe it, well, honestly why be a Christian if you don't believe in the Bible?
Long winded, rambling, no wonder I don't post much. Problem is, I think about a lot of things, have a lot of opinions and no one to talk to about them. Any wandering soul that reads this, be prepared, because I have a feeling I will be back again soon.
Thursday, 26 February 2009
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The Wiccan Rede and my religious 2 cents worth
The phrase, “And harm it none, do what thou wilt,” summarizes well the ideas of morality and personal freedom. It can, of course be interpreted in a variety of ways, from vegans literally harming no living thing (to the best of their ability) to specifically refraining from harming our fellow human beings. ‘Harm,’ too, can be interpreted differently though can logically be reasoned to mean physical, emotional and metal intentional abuse. The golden rule can be coupled with this statement to clarify the idea of harming none – “Treat others the way you would like to be treated.” How many crimes would cease if people just followed the simple golden rule they were taught as children? This is of course actually quite limiting of the “do what thou wilt” part of the statement, that many people read as being too open ended, bordering on anarchy. In actuality it differs greatly from the phrase, “Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law,” that many people associate with paganism and Wiccans. (That is in fact a Satanist philosophy, not related to Wicca at all). Of course it does leave available: homosexuality, birth control, fornication, marijuana use, not going to church or believing in God, believing in many gods/goddesses, etc. But it calls people who follow this philosophy to be exceedingly careful about how their actions affect other people and themselves. Responsibility for harm caused rests solely on the shoulders of he that caused it. It cannot be prayed away, the consequences must be faced.
The Wiccan Rede has no dogmatic punishment for disobeying this ‘rule’. Refusing to follow it doesn’t necessarily lead to dire consequences in this life or the next. Some believe in the threefold law (three times bad and three times good) is karmic justice - a sort of law of nature, something that simply happens to keep balance in the universe. Of course there is no way to prove what happens in the next life, or really a way (that we have) to measure the breadth of our morality/ immorality to figure out our karmic justice so I’d rather not worry about it. Isn’t being good for goodness’ sake enough? It is for me. I don’t need to be afraid of reprimand or hopeful of reward to be a decent human being. The threefold law, as practiced by most Wiccans I have spoken with, applies most to the use of magick and rituals as a reminder to always do good when working with the divine.
People may wonder how I can say that I no longer believe in the bible (because I think its silly) and yet believe in magick and the old pagan gods. In order to understand, you have to allow yourself to think with an open mind about the idea of divinity. And understand that I am not claiming to have the only true answer, or trying to get other people to believe as I do. Christians often say that God is infinite, far greater than we and therefore we cannot attempt to understand all that he is. I agree and in no way do I think that I do understand any more about the Divine than anyone else. But let us take a look at this idea of an infinite Divinity (I use ‘divinity’ because it seems like a broader term than ‘God’ which is well defined as a specific person to many people). I believe that Divinity is transcendent, meaning in everything, connecting everything, ‘above’ everything. When you see Wiccans and pagans ‘worshipping’ the elements, the planets, the sun, animal deities and ancient gods, it is really the divinity within the physical things and intellectual ideals they represent. Myths are told without deceit – as myth and not dogma. Seasons are celebrated for what they are, similarly to the way they were celebrated long ago. Christian holidays, even secular holidays such as Groundhog Day and Thanksgiving are all mimicry of ancient pagan holidays. We simply celebrate them as such.
Pagan Gods are not thought of in the same way as Christian God or even Jesus. We admit that they are incomplete parts of a greater whole, but each describes a set of human traits and philosophical ideas. Calling upon the power of Athena is to call upon the power of wisdom and knowledge. One pictures in their mind the Goddess as she is portrayed in myth and art and the visualization strengthens the ideals we are seeking. The human brain works this way; it is why Christians have a pretty specific picture of Jesus (though we obviously have no idea what he looked like). Having an idea of God is much easier to grasp if there is a picture to go along with it. It has been said that pagan gods and Catholic saints are used pretty similarly. I wouldn’t know, I have never been Catholic, but if it helps someone understand better how people can believe in the ancient gods again after all these years, go for it. I know that several Saints are actually pagan gods claimed by the Church (Brigid anyone?). Some people think pagans worship themselves as gods. This is somewhat misleading, since we do believe in the Divine in everything and everyone we do worship the personifications of it in ourselves as well. We do not have shame or guilt about our bodies or the sensations of pleasure it gives us.
As for believing in magick, that too is just a matter of defining what I mean by ‘magick.’ I use the ‘k’ at the end, as many Wiccans do, to differentiate from the Chris Angel type act of illusionism and showmanship. That is all well and good, but it isn’t what I mean. And I do not believe that I can fly or turn lead into gold or walk on water or even make someone fall in love with me. Magick is essentially a ritualized prayer. Every step and piece of equipment simply strengthens the desired outcome. Stones, herbs, chants, candles etc are all used to stimulate the brain and focus our energy to affect change in the world, our lives in particular (usually). Many Christians believe in miracles, even ones that occur on a daily basis, and that the power of prayer works. It shouldn’t be any less strange to believe what I have described. It certainly shouldn’t be looked down upon as being silly, something that requires you to be stoned out of your mind to believe.
Essentially I stopped being a Christian because the religion as it exists today is a lie. Precious few churches follow the teachings of Jesus and evangelical Christianity is nothing but a plague upon our country, feeding on fear and devouring the cash flow people readily give up for the idea of salvation. I retrograded to a non-dogmatic faith of my ancestors to return to harmony with them and with the natural world. I am free of the Christian guilt and I am certainly happier and a better person for it. Better in a moral sense. Yeah, morality based on humanism – it’s amazing.
One of the most frustrating things about being Wiccan I have come across is not being taken seriously as a religious person and a moral person. When I started on my path at the age 16, adults always had the condescending attitude that I was going through an adolescent phase and I would ‘grow’ out of it. A few took it seriously, but in that I was seriously having sex orgies and making contact with demons (yes, quite literally). And they think I’m unenlightened! Most of my family chooses to completely ignore it, which is still better than the few that are now trying to re-save me. Please don’t waste your time, I have read the Bible, I know what it says, I am not interested.
In fact, it would be nice if all the evangelicals out there would just stop trying to force everyone to believe what they believe. The USA is not, and never was meant to be, a Christian Nation so stop trying to make it one. The Bible has no use in politics or science; keep it as a guide to personal morality if you want but seriously that is where is should stay.
Friday, 13 February 2009
Sunday, 01 February 2009
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Why do you practice your chosen religion? If you don't observe one, why not?
I am a practicing pagan because I truly believe that there are answers out there and the closest we will come to knowing them in this life is constantly searching for them. Various religions have their ideas and give their followers answers, but Wicca does not, at least, not the same way. "If you cannot find the answer within, they you shall never find it without," says the Charge of the Goddess. Wicca acknowledges that the answers are bigger and more complex than we can comprehend, but we are working on getting it as close as we are able. My life and soul are enriched by a daily contact with the divine, and I hope that through me their powers can make the world around me a better place to live. Of course, the search for meaning and the truth about our existence will never be reached, but it is still important to try. Because that is meaning enough.
I have never done this before but the question intrigued me. I am not sure if I am at all clear, but you get what I meanI just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!
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Sunday, 18 January 2009
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Yuletide Dreams
On the longest night of the year the whole world waits for the rebirth of the Sun. High in the mountains, far away from city lights and noise, Avalon and her family make camp with another couple to watch this new dawn. The wind blows cold with sprinkles of snow in the air and Avalon shivers. She wonders what they are doing up so high in the freezing cold to wait for the sun. Doesn’t it rise just the same every day? Couldn’t they see it safe at home out of the cold? But her parents only tell her that this night will be different.
As the sun sets and the light drains from the sky the temperature drops even more. The parents make a big fire and it warms her face with its golden light. Her light brown curls hang from beneath a knitted hat and she wears a purple winter coat, but she is still cold.
“I am going to freeze to death,” she says, hoping to get her parents to take her home.
“Don’t be silly,” her mom replies. “The tent will be nice and warm, we brought a heater for you.” She looks at a watch and tells Avalon, “Why don’t you get to bed? We have a ritual to do that is too big for you, but we will get you for the greeting of the Sun.”
“Hey wait a second,” her father protests. “Would you like to hear a story first?” Her father tells very good stories about all sorts of things.
“Yes!,” she exclaims. “Please tell me a story first. Then I’ll go to bed.”
Her mom smiles in agreement and they bundle up in blankets with hot cocoa and cinnamon rolls. The other woman sprinkles herbs on the fire and burns an offering that smells piney and sweet. The warmth and the smell make Avalon feel very calm and dreamy. She likes the feeling. Her father begins by putting on a crown of antlers and her mother wears her moon circlet. The other adults wear similar crowns and it suddenly feels like magick.
A light drumming begins from the other man and it quickly fades into a heartbeat rhythm, ever present but unnoticeable. Avalon’s father begins, speaking in time with the drum beats.
“Before there was light, there was the darkness. Out of the darkness light was born. Out of the light came then all energy, all matter, all that we are. Out of the light Time was born. But the darkness came before all. Do not fear the dark! Because we are all creatures of the Dark as we are creatures of Light. The darkness is the womb from which all is born, the grave to which we all return, the cauldron from which we are reborn. The Dark Mother, the Bright Father, we are children of both. This night belongs to the Dark Mother, but the dawn belongs to the Sun God who is born from her womb. “
Avalon looks up into the now black sky dotted with countless stars. She notices not only the bright beauty of the heavenly lights, but the infinite power of the darkness between them. The darkness that birthed them and allowed them to burn so bright. She shivers with the thought of that first utter dark, and the bright explosion that followed. This night, the longest night of the year, reflects that first infinite darkness that ended at the dawn of time. Her father continues, his voice growing softer, more fatherly.
But this night is not about the dance of the celestials only. Here on our own Mother Earth it is also a night of blood and sacrifice. We are here tonight to reflect on our ancestors who lived so long before. Before comforts of light and heat, when darkness and cold were harsh realities. After the last harvest had past and the food stores grew scarce came the time of the hunters. The Lord of the Forest gave his life, and the lives of his creatures, so that man might live and be warmed. In return, our ancestors used all parts of the animal and gave thanks through sacrifice. The men would wear the skin and horns of the animals they slew in order to give them life again. On this night, they would dance and sing, invoking the spirits of the forest. The spirits would enter the people and they would have life again. So you see, in all things there is life in death and death in life. Light and Darkness within all creating and destroying only to create again.
Avalon fell asleep before his second tale ended and her mother gently carries her into her tent, a cozy bed of blankets well warmed just for her. The adults begin their ritual, throwing more herbs onto the fire and raising energy. The Drummer begins to quicken the beat, increasing the complexity of the rhythm. Avalon’s mother dances the spiral dance as the other woman Sings. She sings in the most beautiful mellow harmonic soprano. The dancing, the singing, the drumming tell the story of Light and Darkness with more beauty and clarity than words ever could. Avalon’s Father, the Stag, Lord of the Forest falls to the ground and rises again with a touch from her mother. The both dance with in the spiral raising energy from the power of the Drummer and the Singer. The shadows dance on the walls of Avalon’s tent and the Magick takes her into a Dream.
She wakes on the ground in the forest. A slowly burning fire smolders near her and there is a layer of frost at her feet. The wind blows bitterly cold and she wonders where on earth she could be. There is no sign of the camp or her parents or the car they drove up in. As she looks around again, she doesn’t think this is even the same forest.
A sharp cracking sound from her left draws her attention and she sees a huge beautiful stag walking towards her. He wears his winter coat, thick and grey and has massive antlers and gentle, wise eyes. He walks close enough for her to touch and she is not afraid. He smells of life and the forest and she finds herself reaching out to him. He looks at her with deep, intelligent eyes and touches her forehead with is nose. Love and joy fill her and she looks at the forest with new eyes of wonder and excitement. Suddenly he falls, an arrow protrudes from his neck and bright red blood flows from the wound. His eyes, once full of intelligence and life grow dim and then empty.
Shocked and outraged, Avalon cries out, weeping for the fallen stag. The air around him shimmers and she sees not the spirit of a deer, but of a man with golden horns. He smiles gently and fades away in a blink of an eye.
She blinks back her tears and turns toward the attacker yelling, “Why would you kill the pretty Stag? He never hurt anyone!”
A woman clothed in leather and furs steps from amongst the trees, a wolf follows silently behind her. She has black sharp eyes and short hair but her feminine beauty is all too apparent. “And who are you to tell me what I should do in my own forest?” She sounds stern but amusement underlies the tone.
Unabashed, Avalon holds her ground. While she respects adults, she does not fear them and her parents taught her to stand up for her beliefs. “I am Avalon Serenity and I say that it is wrong to kill a poor deer that never hurt anyone. He was gentle and beautiful and deserved to live.”
The woman looks her over with a wry smile, sizing up the little activist. “Well, Avalon Serenity,” she says, “I am Artemis and this is my forest and these are my creatures. While all you have said is true, the deer was beautiful and he did harm to none, it is still my will that his life be taken on this day. If you come with me, I will show you why.”
She holds out her hand to Avalon who rejects it but follows Artemis and her wolf companion. Artemis takes the deer and makes a sling for it so she can drag it behind her with the help of her wolf. Although the stag must weigh more than she weighs, she seems to have no problem dragging him through the trees and over the brush.
Very soon they come to a clearing where a few small wooden houses have been build in a circle around a large campsite. Women and children bustle about very busy on what they are doing, cleaning hide, making candles, draining fat to burn, mending clothes and buildings, gathering firewood. Artemis is greeted with a quick bow and a smile by all as they make their way to a hut much like every other. Inside is a young mother and a tiny baby. There is a fire in the hearth but the mother is obviously not well enough to tend to all her needs yet.
She smiles broadly at Artemis as she enters, lit up by the sight of the fallen stag. “Oh you have found one so quickly! I am glad because it is such a cold day with such a long night ahead.”
“This is Avalon. The forest sent us both her and the stag as a sign of love to help you through these next few weeks,” Artemis replies smoothly, introducing Avalon. She suddenly felt ashamed for attacking Artemis over killing the deer. This woman obviously needs food and clothes for the new baby.
“Come with me,” Artemis commands, and Avalon follows her back outside. They carefully skin the hide from the stag, Artemis guiding Avalon’s hands with timeless care and knowledge. Avalon is set to stretch the hides over wooden frames and scrape the insides to keep them supple and dry. The work is difficult and cold, but she feels full of desire to help the Mother and treat the gifts of the stag with reverence. Artemis cleans and cuts the meat of the deer and prepares it to be smoked. The smokehouse is downwind of the village and Avalon feeds the fire beneath it to fully cook the meat. They make sausages out of the intestines and extra meat. The marrow is collected and given to the Mother for its strength and nutrition. The organs are kept sacred to sacrifice and the bones are polished and cleaned to be made into tools or utensils by the Mother. The antlers are kept as a sacred headdress and Avalon’s fingers prick with power when she touches them. All the energy and work done has raised the power of the amulets already, even before the rituals begin. Avalon makes tiny shoes and a coat for the baby and the rest of the leather is left for the mother to use as she needs it.
When all has been completed, days or weeks from when they began - Avalon does not feel the passage as she would normally - the Yule rites begin. The sun sets and the longest night begins. The men from the village return with stags of their own to clean and prepare. Like the ritual her parents celebrate outside her tent, these ancient peoples Drum and Sing and Dance. They act out the hunt and the sacrifice and rebirth of the Sun. The men wear the antlers of the deer they have slain and are filled with the spirit of the Stag. Avalon is caught up in their dance and their chanting:
Corn and grain, corn and grain all that falls shall rise again
Hoof and Horn, Hoof and horn, all that dies shall be reborn
The fire grows and the chanting peaks, the men cry out in their death throws and the woman sing all the louder, lifting the men up and removing the horns that they may live as men again. Artemis in the center fills with the light of the moon, dancing the wildest of them all. She has no man to raise, only her own power. In the flames of the fire Avalon sees the horned man she saw when the Stag died. His image grows stronger but no one else seems to notice. Calmed from her chaotic dancing and chanting, she walks towards him and he takes her hand.
His voice fills her mind like the sent of pine needles and he tells her, “Do not weep for the fallen, for death is only a passage into new life. The Stag lives now more fully than he ever has. His spirit fills the Mother and her Son who will in turn give their lives back to the earth. Remember, Light was born of Darkness, which in time returns to the dark, only to be reborn once more. Look out there, to the east,” he points his harm to the dimly glowing horizon. “From the darkest night, here is born a bright new Sun.”
She turns her head and the village is gone. She is alone but something is pushing against her shoulder.
“Wake up, Avalon, you are missing the Sunrise!” she hears her mother’s voice. She opens her eyes and the Dream leaves her completely. It is still very dark and very cold but she does not complain. She leaves the warmth of her tent and stands hand in hand with her mother and father with their eyes on the eastern horizon. As the sun rises she almost sees a figure of a man in it, with golden hair and fiery skin reaching across the sky out of the darkness. They eat hot cinnamon rolls and drink apple cider as they greet the sun, leaving some on the ground as offering.
When the sun has fully risen, Avalon reaches up to her mother and says, “You were right Mom, this sunrise is very special.”
“It really is,” she agreed, though it would be many years before she heard the full story of Artemis and the Yuletide Dream. It becomes a place of power and Magick and they always come back to celebrate Yule like their ancestors did so many years ago!
Monday, 18 August 2008
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I like reading about opinions that differ from my own, it is a chance to see the world from someone else's eyes. I figure, the more perspectives I am able to understand, the more of the world I can experience and enjoy. Although simplicity can be quite useful, I have found that the answer is rarely as simple as it looks, and people are far to complex to ever accurately predict. Life is kept in balance, always changing, always staying the same. The world is always ending. And its always beginning again. We struggle without our mortality - that is the basis of our experience on this planet Earth.
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